Today

Today I am grateful to have my mother here with me, and for the health and well-being of my child. I know how life can change in a moment.

Today I'm just a little bit more opened, so I miss my father just a little bit more, and my heart aches just a little bit harder, for the boys next door whose parents scream and fight, even on a day like today.

Today I am thankful not to be in a relationship that hurts or drains or disappoints or dishonors, and even more thankful that this is the last year I will go against what I know; the last time I will make another wrong choice.

Today I am sad to feel as alone as I do, yet comforted by what I'm certain is coming next-in ten years, in one month, even in one minute from now.

Today I am happy to be spending this New Year's eve with someone who wants to spend it with me.

Today I will pray for peace and for the end of suffering; for yours, for mine, and for the family next door-on this day today, Christmas.