Thursday night

Just when I thought I'd have a break from myself, just when I thought I was going to jump in and enjoy a lovely swim, I'm back in it. Back in a place I don't want to be; impatient, longing, clipping my own wings and shutting my mouth. But there's that mirror again, the one I can't seem to put down, and though the reflection I see makes me sad, I know that everything is a lesson that takes me closer to the woman I'm supposed to be. I wish I would hurry up and be her, I'm so ready to enjoy the water.