Lower self

I have either fallen in love with, or attracted men who are unavailable--emotionally unable, attached to other people or who live far away. Obviously, I am the common denominator, the creator of this reality--it's what I've asked for and it teaches me lessons I desperately need to learn. But sometimes I just want to toss my responsibility into the trash and feel some good old fashioned anger--I want to curse and blame, and have someone else share the burden when this perfect journey I'm on suddenly feels like an endless, impossible, and lonely climb.