Monday, February 22, 2010

Thoughts in real time

My father died on February 16th, 1996. This past February 16th was the first one since then that came and went without me remembering. I only remembered it just now, when I spotted the date on my calendar. I also just realized that I no longer think of him every day, a thought that startles and saddens me.

I miss my dad. I miss how much he loved me, I miss feeling safe in the world because he was in it.

7 comments:

Kathy said...

I'm sorry for your loss, Katie. You have been blessed to have such a wonderful man on your life.

I have spent the last couple of weeks writing my life down. Everytime I REALLY think of my grandfather, I cry. I loved him so much....he's been gone over 30 years.

padiwack said...

I relate to this. Though the details and dates have blurred over time, I carry the twinkle in his eyem and the feeling of being lifted high and hugged tight. I miss my Dad too.

{{{hugs}}}

wendy said...

i was just reading over what you wrote on feb 16-17th and realize that it fits with what you say about your dad..what he taught you about yourself etc..

i love this photo of you both...so precious! when you say you loved how he loved you..it broke my heart and at the same time brought me joy to think about such a wonderful father-daughter love.

much love to you,
wendy

Anonymous said...

You know katie Cakes....I dont miss my dad at all. I think that is so sad. I think your lucky to have good memories and good feelings to miss. To know your Dad thought the world of you...... lucky girl!

Love that picture of you and your dad. I see you still!

TallDarkHandsome said...

I remember that day so well. (David left a message on my work phone.) Your dad was such a light to me, even in the brief time I knew him. He may be gone, but the light still shines.

itzktb said...

Such beautiful comments. I appreciate them all. xxok

PS: I know, T.

ChloeLovesLife said...

This was beautiful, Katie. Thank you for sharing it.