Saturday, February 12, 2011
I like that
I like that I can wake up in the middle of the night and play online Scrabble if I want to. I like that I can go to dinner with my ex-husband and our child, then stop at a chocolate shop for treats. I like being able to cook a meal, order take-out, or eat nothing at all. I like clicking my mouse, washing dishes without gloves, and wearing my hair up. I like writing a book, and I like facebook. I like that I no longer doubt the importance of the role I play in my daughter's life. I like that my body is at ease, and my breath is not held, and I like that the only surprises occurring these days are the ones that feel good. I like that I'm surrounded by people with strong minds and gentle hearts, and I like that this is the only reality in which I will ever live again. I like that when the day comes to chose someone to walk beside, I know I'll chose a man who speaks my language; who is imperfect, but whose life will meld with mine. I like that I'm certain he won't be in disguise the way he's been so many times before, because for the first time, my eyes are wide open... and I like that; I like that most of all.