Not a quarter, not a whole... just somewhere in between.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Most of us don’t just get to have the love we want because we want
it. We get to have the love we want because we first spend a period of our lives
squandering our love on those who can’t receive it, or don’t appreciate it,
or don’t deserve it, or who abuse it. And then we spend more
time searching our souls for answers, asking ourselves in what areas we
could have been better. We meditate, we pray, we wonder, we cry, we
blame and we take responsibility. Then after years and years of being on
what only seems like a hamster wheel, we realize that love
feels good, not bad. We realize that love is completely attainable, that
it’s not the thing always out of reach. We understand that a person who
makes you cry, or doesn’t respond to your touch, or isn’t with you on
your birthday, or who doesn’t want you to meet their friends, or who
doesn’t treat you like the gift that you are, is the wrong person to
spend your precious existence with. At some point, the time in which you
reside in wrong relationships gets shorter and shorter, until you come
to a place where you can smell the wrong one coming from a mile away.
And then, when you discover you’ve been looking into a trick mirror your
whole life, seeing things not as they are, but as you believed
them to be-when you finally put forward the love in you that calls for,
requires, and gently demands it be reflected back just as it’s being
…love walks into your life as effortlessly as if you never had to do any of that work at all.
My father once told me the most important thing in life was to evolve as a human being. Years after that, he told me the most important thing in life was to have an intimate relationship with another human being. I believe he was right about both.